My heart is yours [Forever]

I know this may be redundant
But I think it bares repeating
I think I've found my other half
I swear I've found my better half

Why I love you is a hard question to answer. I love you because you care for me like no one else I know. I love the way I feel in your arms, so safe from all the dangers in the world. I love your eyes, so hypnotic and mesmerizing, beautiful to gaze into, and yet never revealing everything to me. I can't explain every way that I love you because that's impossible. But I can say that I love you because you are you.

I say fall head over heels, find someone you can love like crazy & who will love you the same way back

You cant be me Im a rockstar

I don't wanna be your whole world, I just wanna be your favorite part

all you have to do in life is
go out with your friends, party, have fun,
and look twice as good as the bitch standing next to you

Everythings been upsetting lately. And tonight it just all flashed before my eyes and I just brokedown. like completly i couldnt stop crying and i just lost control. I had a good talk with my mom. Ive decided im not going to college instead im going to become a cosmotolegist and go to a beauty school because thats what i love to do. its just where my heart is right now. me and mike are at rough point right now and its hurting me alot. its not us its evryone else. well get through it. I miss my dad so much i feel so lost without knowing. its hurts so bad. and i cant stop crying. i havent stopped in the past like 4 hours. its hard. case is really helping me he actually is listening and understanding and it really makes me feel better it does. I wish i could just call renee because i miss her so bad and i just need to vent but i dont want to put this on her. i swore i wouldnt do this but its killing me inside.

Look for the girl with the broken smile...

I am your daughter hiding my depression. I am your little sister making a good impression. I am your friend acting like I'm fine. I am a teenager pushing her tears aside. I am the girl sitting next to you. I am the one asking you to care. I am your best friend hoping you'll be there.

i know it hurts. but it's life, and it's .r.e.a.l. and sometimes it fucking hurts, but it's life, and it's pretty much all we've got.

I'm half alive but I feel mostly (dead)
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight

40 questions about 2005.

1) Was 2005 a good year for you? Umm. Yeah it was a really fun year alot better then 2004, a whole lot

2) What was your favorite moment of the year? Umm november 19th, homecoming, or sadies and all kaylas parties

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? Proubably... umm... well once me and renee stopped being best friend kinda sucks

4) Where were you when 2005 began? Hmm... i cant think of it i dont think i even watched the ball drop! but i think i was with haley

5) Who were you with? haley i think, wow i cannot even think so i mustve been drunk

6) Where will you be when 2005 ends? with mike!

7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends? Mike!

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005? yeah right

10) Did you fall in love in 2005? yes i did =)

11) If yes, with who? Michael Alan Schultz

12) If yes, do they know? yes they do very much

13) Are you still in love with them? yes of course im very in love with him

14) Do you regret it? nooo way

15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005? umm nope

16) Did you make any new friends in 2005? yes lots

17) Who are your favorite new friends? tiana, alyssa and whitney

18) What was your favorite month of 2005? hmm.. proubably august since it was warm but i still met alyssa and tiana and whitney and i love them all and i met my love!

19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005? nope

20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005? umm.. jeesh like 6-7

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005? no thank god

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year? yes i did i missed my dad alot

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005? red eye or weddin crashers

24) What was your favorite song from 2005? wow.. umm i dont know prolly spill canvas ones

25) What was your favorite record from 2005? one fell swoop or north

26) How many concerts did you see in 2005? umm like 2

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005? ashleee simpson

28) Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2005? oo yes

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005? no

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005? 1

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year? no wayy

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005? i dont remember

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005? prolly

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005? yeah

36) How much money did you spend in 2005? alot

37) What was your proudest moment of 2005? i dont know

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005? o dear i have no clue

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be? umm nothiiing

40) What are your plans for 2006? stay with mike forevvvver and ummm lose weight..sooo cliche

review of my week:

Monday- Yuck yuck school. Boyfriends house and rented Kicking and Screaming. Someone fell asleep during it <Guilty> then when i woke up for the 5 minutes i went home (( Felt bad = me ))

Tuesday- Whorrrreable school. went home. talked to mike. watched real world reunion.cried when dannyproposedtomelinda. slept.

Wednesday- Came home. Mike came over around 430 we just chillled. Then he had football and i had dance so we left. came home. watched one tree hill. glamorous. loved it. made me sad. watched gilmore girls then watched the new made with my brother. called mike and went to sleep.

Today- didnt feel good so i went home during 2nd block. slept all day then woke up and mike was playing with my hair  -- god i love that boy --. so chilled around with him. got a piggyback ride to my mailbox. woot woot! then we just sat there cuz i was sick and he was not so there wasnt much to do so we just layed in bed then he went home and i did nothing. only now i have my marshmellow mania fruity pebbles at my side and its wonderfull.

[	mood	|	sleepy	]
[	music	|	The OC soundtrack	]

Well i went to teneesee for thanksgiving it was niice seeing mandi since shes back from iraq and all the rest of my family, i didnt get to see my dad tho since he can only have one vistor a week and my little sister went. that sure did put a downpour on my sunny day = ( anyways i missed mike way to much while i was gone. But when i came home aat 3:45 on sunday morning i called him and talked then we hung out all day sunday and went to hooters and then tried to watch 1 tree hill but it wasnt working , sad, so we just played some games and met briannes boyfriend. they came over and me and mike were having a burping contest, way cool first impression on ur sisters boyfriend, o well. haha. today i just kinda had a down day so after school i came home and picked up my room and then went to mikes house and we did our anderson packet kinda lol and then went and rented kicking and screaming, i fell asleep for like the last hour of it and then slept for like an hour and half, i felt bad.

ps. i hate winter so much

fake is so in;;
&& you're so stylish, babe.

save a balloon,
pop ya collar. <3

& tonight,
no tears will run down
her cheek.
this girl is in love

Thanksgiving/Christmas last year + finding out about my dad = worst day of my life. Its weird looking at pictures and actually being able to tell exactly how i was feeling....hurt

sad...

I miss the ruttys

I miss my little sister alex

I miss the way me and renee used to be

But most of all i miss my dad =(

Im going to miss mike so muuuch when im gone.

cause i believe in holding hands in the
car and kissing at all the red lights ♥

that day i met you ; ill never forget it
i was so unsure ; my life was a bit of a mess
until i looked at you..
it was something in your eyes
something that told me that you were alright
that you were what i needed.

<33333 Rachel

Being a best friend is when you can look into her eyes and pretend to be happy and she just hugs you and you both start crying because you not only see the pain in her you feel it too.

this isn`t any other teenage romance,
no, they`ve grown through it all,
and gained their maturity,
after all of the bumps on this rocky road
they`ve finally reached their desired
destination : love

PREP is the new PiMP
don't go solo, grab a polo
you don't gotta holla
pop your collar

I've got more with, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck

than any girl you'll ever meet. Sweetie you had me. Boy, I was

it. Look past the sweat, a better love deserving of exchanging

body heat in the passenger seat.- Panic at the discooo

&& there's something about you
that makes me fall harder each time

( Fill it out bitches  )

No Not even Hell Could Be hotter then you right now

( Lets get those teenage hearts beating faster faster )

There are some things on my mind

that i wish i could tell her

oh she was so kind she didnt deserve this

and now she is missed by many

And i wish she was here right now

to clear up all these frowns

and i wish love would get somewhere

and bring her here

its not fair to everyone she loved

and now shes up above

looking down on us

Oh we loved her so

why did god make her go

all you see are sighs

a tear and a cry

days are not the same

no one is tame

and all we have to say is

i wish she was here right now

to clear up all these frowns

and i wish love would get somewhere

and bring her here

its just not fair to everyone she loved

and now shes up above lookin down on us

oh we loved her so why did god make her go

tears roll down our eyes

as we say goodbyes

and we will remember her....forever 

                       - written by me in 7th grade for leah

August 3, 1988- november 12, 2001

Davison Twp.- An eighth garde girl wa shit by a passing pickup truck early today as she tried to cross irish rd to baord her school bus, police said. The girl, 14, a davison middle school student, was taken to hurley medical center. She was reported in critical condition this morning. Police said the girl, whose name is not released yet, was trying to board a bus about 7 am near bristol road. The two lane road is heavily traveled at that time of morning, witnesses said. The speed limit is 55mph. The girl apparently came from the west shoulder and was struck by a southbound late-model pickup police said. Her classmates aboard the bus saw the accident occur. The girl was thrown in the air by the impact. The female driver of the pickup repordetly told the police the bus only had its yellow lights on, Further details about the pickup driver were not immediatly avaliable. The children on the bus were transferred to another bus (after the student was taken away after about 1 hour.). An unidentified woman stopped t the scene and gave the child CPR, witnesses said. Principal Jim Creech said about 40 students were on the bus. Some where somber and very upset when they reached school, he said. Counselours were availiable for those students who were on the bus.

" A 14 year old eighth grader at davison middle school died the afternoon of monday Nov. 12."

"Leah Marie Woodside had been attending davison Middle school less then two months when she was struck and killed Monday while running to board a school bus."

"Dear Parents, as you know, a middle school student, Leah Woodside, was killedd Monday morning as she crossed the road to board her bus"

Your body is not here but your soul is in our hearts

Not something you want to go through at 13 years old.

RIP LEAH MARIE WOODSIDE

wow. So all yesterday was spent with whitney whom i love so much! we seriously talked non-stop haha suprise then we did these malibu thing . i missed mike so much tho cuz he was on his gay field trip.

Today i woke up and mike called over whits and it made my morning! then i came home and sat around for a bit messed with my myspace then i got in the shower, while i was in the shower mike called and he was in my house haha. so then i just got ready and sat around with my baby, i missed him so much. so we ended up going out to pizza hut with the kirbys who i also love! it was a blast we laughed the entire time it was alot of fun! then me mike kyrstie and hayley all went to see exorcism of emily rose which was creeeeeepy. i had alot of fun today and im so glad i got to see mike!

I'm not afraid of heights, I'm afraid of Falling.
I'm not scared of the dark, I'm afraid of what's in it.
I'm not afraid to love, I'm afraid of not being loved back.

I never thought

I'd risk the chance of getting hurt again,

but for some reason when

   I'm with you it all seems worth it<3

I came to the realization that I could tell you I love you

repeatedly for the rest of time *&*

you still wouldn't know how much you mean to me

A girl only needs three things in her life: LOVE to make her weak, ALCOHOL to make her strong, and FRIENDS to pick her up when the first two make her hit the floor

So today was alright during school i just couldnt wait to get home. Me and derek went to jakes and got a pizza then we went back to his house ate it and waited for brad to get there, then derek dropped me off on his way to hockey and i came home and fell fasssstt asleep till like 530 and woke up to joe barking and it was mike so i was way happy. Me and mike watched some laguna and whit called me cuz we have these awesome plans which we are so amped for them! before mike left we talked a little about some stuff thats been bugging him recently, imagine that something that has to do with me bugs someone ha never woulda thoughhhht,, o well its over with now. so then he went home and i took a shower and then now im watching the new real world. blahh

she's scared.. scared to lose him. scared that she'll do something wrong that will make him leave her. scared that he'll find someone to take her place. she's scared because she realized just how much he really means to her <3

highlights:

•       Quitting my job
•       Going Shopping
•       Chinese food
•       More jobs!
•       Got to see my baby today!

There honestly couldnt be a more perfect song for me and my dad

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter 
I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better 
And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders 
A family in crisis that only grows older 

Why’d you have to go 
Why’d you have to go 
Why’d you have to go 

Daughter to father, daughter to father 
I am broken but I am hoping 
Daughter to father, daughter to father 
I am crying, a part of me is dying and 
These are, these are 
The confessions of a broken heart 

I wear all your old clothes your polo sweater 
I dream of another you the one who would never (never) 
Leave me alone to pick up the pieces 
A daddy to hold me, that’s what I needed 

(So) why’d you have to go 
Why’d you have to go 
Why’d you have to go 

Daughter to father, daughter to father 
I don’t know you, but I still want to 
Daughter to father, daughter to father 
Tell me the truth, did u ever love me 
Cause these are, these are 
The confessions of a broken heart 

I love you, I loved you (repeat)

I waited for the postman to bring me a letter

I am so stupid! I have been grounded this whole weekend and i hated every minute of it, even tho it was worth it. Well i didnt wanna go to work so i called in and said my moms cousin died, i know im very dumb, well then the next morning my boss, a very nice man, calls and my mom answers and he is asking for the funeral homes address so he can send flowers, well my mom got very mad at me and so she had me call him back and apologize. im such a stupid girl.  Its way worth the story tho and theres a happy ending ..Im not fired!

So i hated this since i was going to go shopping with maddie and then i havent seen my baby alllllll weekend and it basically sucks major ass BIG TIME! at least i got to go to the Mitchells on friday, i had a blast i love that whole family sooooo much!

these are the days i dont live for

• Poor kid
• dumb dumb work even tho tom is the greatest
• I dont feel good
• couldnt even breathe 3rd block
• stupid cunt licking fat teacher
• this is dumb and im done

small town homecoming queen
she's the star in this scene
there's no way to deny she's lovely

1st

Halloween

Oceans Twelve

Crazy

             No, heaven's not a place that you go when you die
       It's that moment in life when you touch her and you feel alive
                         So live for the moment
                  And take this advice, live by every word
         Love's completely real, so forget anything that you've heard
               And live for the moment now